PRIDE OF PLACE - IN NEWTOWN // The lovely S.P sent me this photograph of her ‘it’s beautiful here at the edge’ print. She tells me this is pride-of-place in her lounge in Newtown, Wellington. Newtown’s one of my very favourite places, so I’m glad this print has got its new home there, amongst the swan and orchids and killer art deco trolley… Plus, this print is custom-framed and the proportions of the artwork are looking so good with a nice amount of space around the image. [ http://www.fleurwickes.co.nz/studio-prints-2011-2017/its-beautiful-here-at-the-edge-2017 ]
YOU ARE WORTH IT DARLING // K sent me through this photograph of “you are worth it darling” in the bedroom she shares with her partner. When she picked the artwork up, she brought him along with her. They were so right together that, after she sent me this photograph, I asked how they met - I love a good romantic story. Well, K told me all about it and do you know what, I freaking cried! Actual tears rolling down my face like I was watching a romantic movie! Yep, I’m that much of a sap… LOL. // You know I really love how my work gets to live in the lives of such interesting and lovely people. It makes me happy. // [ http://www.fleurwickes.co.nz/studio-prints-2011-2017/you-are-worth-it-darling-2015 ]
I’VE LOVED YOU SO LONG // Got a lovely email from A.M today. She sent me this lovely photograph of the artwork she bought from me, and wrote: “This particular piece resonated with me and the relationship I so treasure with my husband. He was actually pretty touched that I chose it and loves it too.” How lovely the word treasure is. How lovely that she sees her marriage as that precious. The other excellent things about this photograph is that, if you zoom in close, you’ll see a wee label with the word Daddy on it. I think the Mummy label might be hiding behind the flowers. Such a story of love and family and sweetness is told in this photograph. Thanks, A.M, for sending it through. And glad your hubby likes the artwork! F // [PS: If you like the artwork, here’s a link you might like… http://www.fleurwickes.co.nz/studio-prints-2011-2017/ive-loved-you-so-long ]
THANK YOU FOR OUR BEAUTIFUL HOURS [studioprint, 2018] // Nothing like completing an artwork to make me feel all warm inside on this freezing cold day! // During the exhibition, lots of people asked me if I’d make a studioprint [A3] of the painting [click to next image] I did with these words. And so I did! I’m digging how very different the studioprint is from the painting! God I love words, and playing with the shape of them to create meaning. // If you’re interested in this print, here’s the link: http://www.fleurwickes.co.nz/studio-prints-2011-2017/thank-you-for-our-beautiful-hours-2018
YOU WERE WORTH IT DARLING, 2014 // During my exhibition, A Private View, I noticed a woman standing at the table where I had my portfolio of studio prints. She was quietly sobbing. I went to her and she told me her story. Her husband had recently died. She had come to this artwork, ‘you were worth it darling’, and she said it summed up how she was feeling. About him. About them. I was moved by what she said and I offered to do an inscription on the bottom of the print for her. No charge. Just because I wanted to. She choose for herself words I had written on a social post. Because the words also felt right for where she was at. The inscription reads: “there’s still the dull black, there’s still the wide open gap, there’s still all the love feeling it’s got nowhere, to rest.” I nearly bloody cried on her print when I wrote the words on it. Because her grief and loss touched me. But also because I feel that way too, lately. Not quite black anymore but dull dark grey. Most often at night, and the very early morning. Sometime’s I feel so lonely for the people that have gone from me that I feel like I could drown in the greyness, but hey, like I say, you were worth it. // You know how it is. We all know how it is. Damn it, wish we didn’t, eh. Kia kaha to you, K. [and thanks for allowing me to tell this story.] FW
THE WICKES FAMILY TABLE // I’m excited this afternoon to finally have set up my new workroom [for those of you who have been following A Private View, you may recognise this as my old bedroom.] Pride of place in this room is my beautiful table. God I love it. It was the Wickes Family table for over thirty years. The eight of us eating, arguing, laughing, bickering, celebrating, loving at it ever since I was a child. It’s kauri, and simply oiled, which accounts for it’s honey colour. It used to be a heavy dark-stained adzed rectangle with legs fit for a royal family in the middle ages - imagine a scene with a king throwing his finished chicken bones across the room and you’ve got it about right. When Mum died, and Dad moved into a new place, I was fortunate enough to get the table. With my family’s blessing, I decided to make the table in a shape which fits me and my life as I live it now. Enter my friend Johnny and the amazing Men’s Shed in Whanganui. They carefully, and with a ridiculous amount of skill , made the oval shape I wanted, and the beautiful honest plain base. When they sanded off the heavy brown stain, I asked them to leave the marks the years had made - the dents and scratches from the life the table’s had. And those wonderful men did. Now I can sit and write and draw at this table and be my own self and also remember the family I deeply love. I seriously could not love this table more. Thank you JR, and the Men’s Shed Whanganui. I’m going to treasure this table for the rest of my life.
TEARS AND A DAMN GOOD HAIRCUT // Been talking lately to people about my intensely felt emotions. I can be crying in the morning, in deeply felt grief, and feel hot with a new haircut in the afternoon… // The people who love me just gotta accept the rollercoaster… I think they kinda love me because of it. But it can for sure freak new people in my life out, when I really open up and let them see how much I feel. // My artwork has always been the main way I’ve navigated through the fierce sea that is my emotional life. Nearly thirty years in and I’m still pushing forward, finding news ways to express how it is that I feel. After the intensity of the last show, I’m feeling ready to begin making new work. Looking forward to what comes next. //
HOW THE YEARS GO BY [tag] // I’ve spent the day working on the large stack of orders I got from my exhibition, and I’m feeling so freakn grateful for them. And also for everyone who came through the exhibition, whether they bought anything or not. I wanted to do something to say thanks to you guys. I’ve come up with this… This wee hand-drawn tag was in the exhibition. I’m going to send this cute wee item to the FIRST person [on Facebook or IG, and I’ll take it by the time the comment was made] who both came to the exhibition, AND can tell me which room this was hanging in. [This is only open to people living in NZ]. Wish I could send this to all of you but I only made one of them… // But my thank you is to all of you! You guys make it possible for me to live this artist’s life and I feel bloody grateful.
LIGHTING A CANDLE
What a lovely last day of the exhibition it is.
Lighting the candles within the rooms is one of the highlights.
I love the lighting of candles.
I love that it’s fire.
Small wee tiny fires dotted around the space.
A reflection of the fire burning in me.
VIEW FROM THE DOORWAY // It’s been a just lovely day, me soaking up this exhibition, and documenting it in video and photographs. I feel quite peaceful and happy. I like this road I’m on. // http://www.fleurwickes.co.nz/artwork/the-road-im-on-2018