WE SHARE THE SAME SKY, YOU + I // [working drawing] //
I made this for you. /
We shared the stars, lay under the sun, and made plenty of stormy weather.
I’m glad to know you’re out there in the world somewhere, working or laughing and hopefully loving. I’m glad to know we’re still under the same sky. //
Today, instead of doing all the work I should have been doing, I went into BUZ and made marks with paint and charcoal and the tips of my fingers - in memory of us. //
I’m not sure of the artistic merit of this picture just yet
but the making of it has eased my aching heart
at least a little,
and for that I am grateful. x //
INTERIOR LANDSCAPE // I got a migraine today, been in bed most of the day sleeping it off. I’m up but I feel depleted. Exhausted. So so tired. I’m not just tired in my body, I’m tired inside myself. I usually only get migraines when I’ve really pushed myself to the limit and my body is saying excuse me, enough. I look at this photograph I made and it seems a good reflection of where I’m at. I love my work, I love this artist’s life. But sometimes I forget just how much it takes it out of me and I don’t take enough real time out in order to have a balance .// I feel like I gotta take note. Make a few changes to the way I do things so I don’t get this depleted. //
PORTRAIT OF A, 18 May 2019 // This is a portrait of how I see A. I look at her and I see a woman of strong & quiet beauty, fierce energy, grace, crazy-good bone structure, and possessing a beautiful interior light. // Thanks, A for being vulnerable with me, for showing your self to me. You trusted me enough to stand in front of me and let me see way down deep. That’s why I could make this portrait - you let me. xx //
SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL I FOUND IT HERE // A delightful afternoon visiting my artwork in the home of the lovely @caitrionadavies . The combination of green and sharp window line and late afternoon light hitting my artwork took me to my happy place. // [ And thanks for the brilliant framing of the artwork, @renatasartandframing.theshop , you really make my artwork sing]
FIERCE // Fierce is a decision. A self-determined state of mind. A willingness to get over yourself no matter how tough it gets. // I get fierce when I’m planking at training and my arms are shaking, when I’m power punching and I’ve got almost no breath left. I get fierce when I’m exhausted and I’ve got to complete work for a deadline. I get fierce when I’m lonely and wanna curl up in a ball but I gotta do photoshop instead. I get fierce when I won’t let the trauma of the past keep me in a shadowed present. // This young woman, L, is fierce as fck. She brought her A-game and some damn excellent ideas with her when we did this photoshoot. She is beautiful, and not afraid to walk her own path. I just love the Elvis type set to her mouth, and that look in her eye. YES Queen. Go get it. // Hashtag I love commissions. //
1989 ! // This is me, bottom left hand corner, the year I studied “Professional Photography” at what is now Massey University, Wellington. My classmates and I were doing fancy dress and I was 18 in this photo… I loved that year. The workload was relentless and the teaching bloody good and the feeling of making photographs exhilarating and I learnt everything I needed to know before I went out into the world and made my own mistakes and learnt my own lessons and found my own artistic voice. God I can’t believe it’s been three decades of putting one foot in front of the other and making work. Bring on the next 30 years! Plus, I gotta bring some of this fun back into my life!
COME TO ME HAS GONE AWAY…// Today, I took a long time to very specially wrap my painting, “come to me” for the especially special woman who has bought it. Partly it took a while due to the big lump in my throat I had the whole time. I didn’t quite realise how much this painting meant to me, how much of my heart was in it, until it was about to leave me. I must confess I cried as I wrapped it. I am 100% glad it is going to the person who bought it - I know she really SAW the painting, and that it has special meaning for her. It’s gonna have a good life with her. I feel like a dork crying about my artwork leaving me but hey it means my heart is alive and open, and my artwork is real and true, and there’s not much in life that matters more to me than open truth, so I’ll take today as a win.
THE RAIN COMES DOWN, 2019 // this one’s off to Singapore - but for sure there are more prints available :-) // I’ll be putting it on my website in the next few days. But if you’re keen and wanna know more info about it, DM me :-)
YES I AM INDEED WEARING A WONDER WOMAN SWEATSHIRT // because Wonder Woman was what I needed to be today to get this lovley artwork packaged to within an inch of its life and on courier to the South Island. Sorry not sorry for all the tape and packaging I used to keep this baby safe :-) // *its beautiful here at the edge* Open Editon Xhibition Print in AO size, archivally framed with museum glass AKA very fcking gorgeous. //
TIME FOR MY SELF // Sitting here in my favourite chair looking out at the trees and the river. // Ain’t done much the last two days - read, sleep, eat, meet a friend for decaf flat-white, repeat. I feel real good today as a result . Because this artist’s life of mine is a life that I love, I sometimes forget just how hard I am working, and forget how important it is to actually REST. There’s heaps of stuff I could be doing today but I’m also waiting on stuff coming from the printers so guess what I’m taking the rest of the day off too, and I’m going to a god damn afternoon movie. I feel so naughty. It’s good to be naughty on occasion, don’t you think?