MAGNIFICENT MESS // workroom tables piled with work and ideas: Just the way I like it.
TOUCHSTONE // Parked up outside the Sarjeant, thinking how happy I am to be living working and loving in this sleepy wee town. When I was a teenager I used to go into the gallery, furtively touch the big sculpture of two men which was in the foyer. I made the decision to come back to Whanganui while I was parked in this very spot, looking at this gorgeous building through the rain on my windscreen. // This building’s like a touchstone to me. //
CANDLE LIGHT // I lay in the bath tonight, looked around my sweet bathroom. Felt content. Jesus Christ the word content hasn’t been in my vocabulary for the longest time. Not sure what’s going on but I like it.
A CROSS // for hope.
SUNDAY LOVELY SUNDAY // My current workroom is the smallest I’ve ever had. And the most lovely. It’s peaceful in this room. The light’s sweet and gentle. The huge grand studio I had a couple of years ago doesn’t even come close. // I never expected to be happy working in this place. This quiet joy I’ve found here has snuck up on me. // It’s so nice this feeling I’ve got inside me this morning, the strong sure feeling that actually everything’s gonna be alright. // A boat floating on a calm sea. That’s me right now. Thank god. Because Jesus lately has been one mofo big storm.
GENTLE HAND // got the test back from the printer and man I’m loving the texture of the background. The mood of the print feels like a giant photocopy. I made portraits that felt like that 27years ago. // Ain’t life full of coming back around to where you started. // Us artists all start with talent and gut instinct. // The challenge is to take that talent/instinct add intentional direction and focus to the mix. That’s when you really start being able to say what you mean. // These last few years, I’m starting to really be able to communicate what I’m trying to say. It’s exciting, to begin to make work that really feels like your own. Be interesting to see what my work looks like in another 27 years :-).
LAMBIES // I’ve spent my life so far with such big emotions, half the time so big they overwhelm me. // These days I find myself interested in gentler feelings. In exploring slow tenderness rather than fierce fire. // I spent time in the garden today. It felt small and quiet and good to have my hands in the earth, touching green. // This is a lambs ear. I adore it. My Mum used to call me Lambies when I was a child and in her very best books. // Now I can bend to this wee specimen, remember her voice and her touch from such a long time ago when I still fit on her knee. //
LIKE STARS IN THE NIGHT SKY // spending this morning working on this ‘remember love’ print. If you look real close you’ll see specks of white dust spread across the print, which look like stars in the night sky to me. Dust and the stars they’re the same thing really and make a good backdrop for remembering love. Because love’s like that too, feelings as big as the universe, felt in every tiny cell in our body. //
SHOP WINDOW // feeling nostalgic tonight. // This large scale artwork in the window of the excellent Next Stop Earth in Newtown, Wellington takes me back to when I loved and worked in a light-filled gorgeous studio in that windy city, and to memories of a most fabulous man, who made me feel like a woman in the most delightful way.
LIKE A PRAYER // having a coffee, taking a sunshine break from work. Looking at my red thread thinking of Mum, thinking this bracelet it’s like one of those bhudist prayer flags they put up and let disintegrate in the weather. Wonder what shape my life’ll be in by the time this thread’s worn out.