Trying to orient myself to this stay-at-home new-normal. Spent the day feeling dark and down, trying to find my way up. It wasn't easy. Full of stuttering stumbling difficult navigation.
The rain fell heavily all day. I felt trapped. Caged. Even the ridiculously excellent scrambled eggs with smoked salmon made by my partner, accompanied by an excellent kiss, didn't lift my mood.
Finally the rain stopped and we got out for a walk. Christ it was good. But there was of course the polite moving away and tight smile from every person we encountered: social distancing is horrid.
But I did see the most beautiful sight. Two kereru in flight. They are my very favourite birds. I've been seeing them all week here in Wadestown, but they've been sitting /shuffling in trees. Today they flew low down and right toward us and I got to hear the gorgeous sound of their heavy wings beating. It completely and utterly made my day.
I'm thinking that if every day I can find it in myself
to find one beautiful thing/experience/moment, then that will keep my damn wobbly arrow pointing upward, and away from the dark fearful place it seems so easy right now to get lost in.
One beautiful thing: I hereby set my compass.
[ Navigation, 2020 is available as a limited edtion studioprint.]