2020
The delicate threads
of love and longing
that bind us ,
that our hearts move toward
and beat for.
The importance of things
we cannot see.
[The importance of things we cannot see, 2020 is available as a limited edition studioprint]
This morning, while my partner and I were lying together watching the light brighten through the skylights above our bed, he said such beautiful things to me. I was almost silent as he said his words, paying fierce attention with my head heart body. They’re words I don’t want to forget. This is a feeling I don’t want to forget. So I made this drawing.
Read MoreAfter many attempts at making a drawing of something beautiful today, after really wanting to say something lovely and gentle and happy and sweet, it just didn't happen. I drew and drew and drew and nope, nothing worked. I kept going and going until the light went but what I ended up with was this X.
Deep red and rough as guts.
Read MoreHere we are. United by love. United by blood. United by the things we believe in. Union.
Read MoreI’m glad I had my silly high-on-sugar party for one yesterday because yesterday evening turned out to be awful. What happened hurt someone I love deeply, and here I am in Wellington in lockdown, unable to go to them. I had literally no sleep last night and I’m feeling wired and exhausted despite the daytime nap I’ve had, and at the same time wishing so badly I had a boxing bag nearby so I can take out some of this fierce feeling on it.
Read MoreI got high. Strike that. I AM high. God it feels good.
An Almond Magnum. gotten at a dairy which was like a party in my mouth. Whitakers Creamy Milk - 1/4 a large block. A strong Good Fortune coffee from Petone made in our Aeropress. More Creamy Milk.. Yes, I am high on sugar and coffee. And did I forget life?
Read MoreWhen you want to be brilliant, incisive and ahead of the game and begin the day making plans for your future and then you put your neck out, have a smacking great headache, and get on the go-slow train.
Read MoreBecause, jesus wept, this lockdown brings you face to face with your self. The headtalk, biases, fears, perspectives, addictions, desires, loves, disappointments: The good, the bad, the excellent and the ugly.
Read MoreThis one’s for the woman I adored right through highschool, Meegan. The words are hers. I took them from a message she sent me the other day. Meegan is literally fighting for her life right now. Battling aggressive cancer in order to stay in this life for her teenage boys.
Read MoreI spent time in the garden today, cutting back large kawakawa, thinking about where to go from here. Thinking big thoughts, using the rhythm of the sawing to ground me, calm me, soothe me. Make me feel everything will be okay.
Thinking how, despite all the fabulous or awful extraordinary events in our lives, in the end, it's what we do in the ordinary everyday that counts.
It’s the small things that you love, that you return to over and over that makes a life. Saves your life.
[Everyday saviours 2020 is available as a limited edition studioprint]