Day 25, 19 April 2020

April 19, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

I’m glad I had my silly high-on-sugar party for one yesterday because yesterday evening turned out to be awful. What happened hurt someone I love deeply, and here I am in Wellington in lockdown, unable to go to them. I had literally no sleep last night and I’m feeling wired and exhausted despite the daytime nap I’ve had, and at the same time wishing so badly I had a boxing bag nearby so I can take out some of this fierce feeling on it.

I GOT HIGH // Day 24, 18 April 2020

April 18, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

I got high. Strike that. I AM high. God it feels good.

An Almond Magnum. gotten at a dairy which was like a party in my mouth. Whitakers Creamy Milk - 1/4 a large block. A strong Good Fortune coffee from Petone made in our Aeropress. More Creamy Milk.. Yes, I am high on sugar and coffee. And did I forget life?

BOX // Day 23, 17 April 2020

April 17, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

When you want to be brilliant, incisive and ahead of the game and begin the day making plans for your future and then you put your neck out, have a smacking great headache, and get on the go-slow train.

ME, MYSELF I // Day 22, 16 April 2020

April 16, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

Because, jesus wept, this lockdown brings you face to face with your self. The headtalk, biases, fears, perspectives, addictions, desires, loves, disappointments: The good, the bad, the excellent and the ugly.

I'M HOLDING ON FOR DEAR LIFE // Day 21, 15 April 2020

April 15, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

This one’s for the woman I adored right through highschool, Meegan. The words are hers. I took them from a message she sent me the other day. Meegan is literally fighting for her life right now. Battling aggressive cancer in order to stay in this life for her teenage boys.

EVERYDAY SAVIOURS // Day 20, 14 April 2020

April 14, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

I spent time in the garden today, cutting back large kawakawa, thinking about where to go from here. Thinking big thoughts, using the rhythm of the sawing to ground me, calm me, soothe me. Make me feel everything will be okay.

Thinking how, despite all the fabulous or awful extraordinary events in our lives, in the end, it's what we do in the ordinary everyday that counts.

It’s the small things that you love, that you return to over and over that makes a life. Saves your life.

[Everyday saviours 2020 is available as a limited edition studioprint]

BESIDE YOU // Day 19, 13 April 2020

April 13, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

It is such a pleasure being so close, learning who it is that you are.

[Beside you, 2020 is available as a limited edition studioprint]

IT'S BEAUTIFUL HERE // Day 18, 12 April 2020

April 12, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

I made the first iteration of this artwork in 2018, during a difficult period. A time where I was feeling hemmed in by the small quietness of my life. I wrote the words as a reminder that there was beauty in my ordinary everyday, despite the corner I felt backed into. It was a case of write it down and make it so. The poem is also a loveletter to my home, the town I lived in, and to this country of ours.

3,2,1 CONTACT // Day 17, 11 April 2020

April 11, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

I had the most amazing conversation this afternoon with a young woman who I’d like to call a friend, and is also a relation in the modern sense of the word. She had such wise advice to give me over something I was finding deeply troubling.

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL TO HOLD ON TO // Day 16, 10 April 2020

April 10, 2020 in 2020, Parentheses

When I was a child and upset, I’d rub the fabric of a blanket between my finger and thumb. It gave me such comfort. I’d do it if I was sad or scared, sick or in hospital for an operation. I particularly liked the ones with satin edging at the top - the smooth feeling contrasted with the rough of the blanket gave me particular pleasure. Gave me something beautiful to hold on to.