Trying to orient myself to this stay-at-home new-normal.  Spent the day feeling dark and down, trying to find my way up.  It wasn't easy.  Full of stuttering stumbling difficult navigation.⁠

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The rain fell heavily all day.  I felt trapped. Caged.  Even the ridiculously excellent scrambled eggs with smoked salmon made by my partner, accompanied by an excellent kiss, didn't lift my mood. ⁠

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Finally the rain stopped and we got out for a walk. Christ it was good.  But there was of course the polite moving away and tight smile from every person we encountered: social distancing is horrid. ⁠

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But I did see the most beautiful sight.  Two kereru in flight. They are my very favourite birds.  I've been seeing them all week here in Wadestown, but they've been sitting /shuffling in trees.  Today they flew low down and right toward us and I got to hear the gorgeous sound of their heavy wings beating.  It completely and utterly made my day. ⁠

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I'm thinking that if every day I can find it in myself ⁠

to find one beautiful thing/experience/moment, then that will keep my damn wobbly arrow pointing upward, and away from the dark fearful place it seems so easy right now to get lost in. ⁠

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One beautiful thing: I hereby set my compass.⁠

[ Navigation, 2020 is available as a limited edtion studioprint.]